Countdown
I have been so unbelievably nervous about launching into this multi day shoot that I literally feel uncomfortable in my own skin, kind of itchy and simultaneously bursting at the seams.
And while I usually enjoy creative processes and challenges a little more than this, as I get closer and closer to “seeing” this iPhone tour, the simpler and simpler it gets and the more I marvel at why didn’t I just get straight to the relative simplicity that has emerged and I see now? And of course, at this juncture, another infuriating part of making art for me, is that the more I work on things the more I streamline them and the simpler and more obvious they seem to the viewer, which could translate into, “that looks easy”.
Anyway, shoot dread and performance anxiety aside I have just been feeling sort of awful for what feels like ever right now. The sun will come out any moment now…though I am not holding my breath.
I do have so many intriguing and engaging things I get to do, even if I don’t feel great I can appreciate the vibrancy of my life.
Which includes being taught how to use a Bolex 16mm camera by Parker today and getting a fun overview with the ever cheerful Benny in iMovie. I have a cool job, I get paid to learn.
And I also took some noir shots of my wet (again) and dark neighborhood.
