Fuck It I'm 50

A big day.

I think the photos from today may express some of this.

Please note that Belva Davis is tiny, she seems so big on TV: John Buchanan, the Director of the Fine Arts Museums of SF is a hoot: that we had weird and cold weather today as witnessed by my 5pm shot out my window: and that Simone, a marvelous woman is gorgeous.

This is what I did today-shoot-ran home-went out to meet an amazing new group of women-came home-made some steamed broccoli and cous cous- and now this.

It went OK to good on the shoot today, while I felt out of body most of the time. It started out rocky, and working within such a rigid institution can be so challenging. But I got over it and myself.

However the interviews today with the top dogs, ironically and wonderfully, were amazing and gratifying.

And today I thought about the choices I have made. Museum settings often do this to me and I keep going back, over and over wondering if I have made the right decisions in my life.

I was musing today that if I had spent all of my energy making money I would be rich and if I had spent all my energy making kids I would have a huge family.

Have I made the right decisions? Is what I do worth it? Are money or kids worth it?

OK-enough, I am shooting for the next two days and it is late and I need to get up early and I need to eat and space out for a few minutes.

Thank you Lee Anne for taking pictures and being a good PA/Assistant producer today.